Wrong Turn

I won't lie. I'm not okay.
This is so hard!! I don't know how much more of this I can handle.
I haven't talked to Pierre yet today. I gave up on checking my email every 15 mins.
I'm having a hell of a time adjusting to this.
I haven't cried so much in this amount of time since Alyssa died..

I can't fricken get through this!!!!

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Why is it that every time I look ahead,
Someone builds a wall.
Thought I was far from the edge,
But it's clear I'm about to fall.
Once again, here I am,
Collapsing to the ground beneath me.
Someway the doors will open,
So someone can set me free.

Here I lay until then,
Helpless and afraid.
The world has a hold of me again,
Strangling the life right out of me.
This concludes everything,
I wasn't ready to face.
But it's no surprise,
I'm back to this place.

Some day I'll meet the end,
Of this life I never asked for.
Waiting is the hardest thing,
I can't handle this anymore.
Can someone find the pieces,
This puzzle is missing.
So I can finally escape,
From all this reminiscing.

August 10, 2oo7
5:24pm

The Past; That's Where It Stays.

:::..Liar.Cheater.Player..:::

How did you get so good at lying?
How can you face them
While you speak such truthful lies
Where did you learn to lie so honestly?

How did you get so good at lying?
You have no heart
You trash theirs to add to it
Where did you learn to lie so thoroughly?

How did you get so good at lying?
A handful at a time
Play them like a deck of cards
Where did you learn to get away with it all?

How did you get so good at lying?
Do you ever panic
When they accuse you of cheating?
Where did you learn to fuck with their minds?

How did you get so good at lying?
No matter how many times you're confronted
You still deny
Where did you learn to wear such strong armor?

How did you get so good at lying?
One day you'll be caught
You'll get what you deserve
Where did you learn to become such a failure?

August 9, 2oo7
3:56am


Trinity's having a fit here. She keeps interrupting my typing and trying to say her own stuff. So here... she can have her own little area:
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