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I want it all back now
Where did it go?
Been trying to figure out how
Afraid I'll never know
It never used to be this way
Not sure what went wrong
I'd like to say it'll be okay
But that could take so long
I miss the way it used to be
I'll get it back; some way, some how
But I can't guarantee
I just want it all back now
Give me some help, send me a sign
I'll do anything at all
Just want it to be fine
Please don't let me fall
I've hit the bottom hard before
And I don't want that again
I don't want this anymore
Things will change. But when?

Courtney Campbell
October 18, 2oo7
3:29pm

-.- Struggle -.-

It's hard to juggle:

• school (tests, homework, things done in school...etc)
• the shit at home
• constant arguments between the loved one
• babysitting
• friends (helping/being there for them 24/7 when necessary)
• whatever else pops in to add to the day

I'm stressing. I'm reaching an end. I'm incredibly drained; emotionally and physically.

Should probably sleep now. I have to get up in 6 hours to face another day.

Don't get me wrong, I'm happy ((majority of me)). Just stressing, I guess.

Goodnight.

Misunderstood

You'll never understand til you feel the way I do. You may want it as well, but it's nowhere near the state I'm in. I believe there's a way around it. It's still fair to them. I've waited this long, but very uncertain I can wait any longer. It tears me apart. And I only wish you could understand. You may say you do, but you don't.