Fresh Start

It's been so incredibly long since I've written anything in here. So much has changed in the meantime.
I've been recently inspired to start fresh; get my life back on track.
I've also decided to start blogging again. I changed my template first before anything; to something more cheerful, something brighter.
When I finally found my blog again, I noticed it was so... dark. So negative. It was so ..... like my old self.
So with a new me, I decided on a new blog altogether. So let's lighten things up. :)

I've had so many "fresh starts" in my life, but were they really even new beginnings? Or were they just me trying to trick myself into thinking things would change? Looking back, I don't think there really was any starting within those "fresh starts". If anything, they were just continuations of the past. You can only change things when you're ready and willing. I've been on a good path so far. So much has changed. I do feel like a different person. I have some rocky moments that drift into the past self, but there's always going to be back-falls. So I'm thinking... so far, so good. :)

I can't believe, reading back to previous posts, how far down I was. It's been a little over a year and it's certainly a big change. I've grown up! lol ... I'm serious! I feel like I'm reading posts from a different person, but at the same time, I remember those days. I'm just thankful it's not like that anymore. I have people to thank for that too. I don't think I could have done it alone.

So, I've been making goals. Making plans to follow through to achieve these goals. And I believe I may just succeed this time. It's good to see. It's nice to feel. It's great to be ... me!
I'm surprised how naturally that came out. And how shocked I was to be saying that. lol - But it does feel good. And I do feel more like myself; more alive.

Oh how excited it is to be getting back on track and being successful.

Speaking of success. That brings me to something ...
You see people that have 'gone far' in life, being lawyers or doctors or all that... and they've gone through so much schooling and are bringing in a lot of money... they have a family and everything. People look at them and think "wow, they're successful" and they envy them. But I hate it. I do.
I don't believe in having to have a ton of schooling and have a high paying job like that, to be successful. The way I see it, is if you've done something, and you feel good about it. You've succeeded. If you've made goals - no matter how simple or how complex, and you've reached them... You've succeeded. Give yourself a pat on the back and keep doing what you're doing. You're no less than these people that have these so called 'great jobs'. You're just as successful as they are. They had a goal, they wanted to become what they are now, and they've done so. And they've succeeded. So it applies the same way with anyone. No matter what it is.

I may be a drop out. I may not have a lot going on in my life right now. But I have succeeded and have more to succeed in. I can be successful too. And I have been. And I will be again. You watch me.