Gone

I wish I knew wtf was going on.
I have been nothing but extremely down for as long as I can remember.
It just gets worse and worse as days pass.
I was somewhat okay, but then Saturday, I don't even know what happened.
Seeing Eric at the bowling alley took me on a different path.
I don't even know what got me to where I am now though.
I won't eat. I can't sleep like I used to. I can't bring myself to really do anything. I find myself crying randomly when nothing really happened. The things that could bring me any happiness whatsoever, don't bring me any at all anymore.
I do have some regrets from Saturday. But it shouldn't have gotten me to where I am now though...
The thing I don't understand is, things between Eric and I seem better than before since Saturday. But yet, I'm worse...
I don't know what happened.
But I'd do anything to get me out of this.
I hate this feeling...