Lies. vs. Truth.

I can't deal with this anymore! My headaches are getting even worse and it's hard to deal with every fuckin day. Geee, I wonder why this is happening again.....
I wish things didn't have to be so fucked up. Wait, they don't have to be. They just always are!

I know what you're doing now and I don't like it.
You can't keep putting me through this shit! I've broken down my wall and taken a good look for myself. You're not who I thought you were. You're not who I first met. You're too good with your words. You've got me attached by those stupid little strings and you control my every move. You're hurting me day by day now. But you don't fuckin care. You never did. I'm just, here!
Use me .... yeah, I bet you already have. You claim you'd never do that, but I know you fuckin have! It's what you've been doing all along. Are there even any feelings attached?!
I ain't playing these games anymore. I fuckin love you, but it's not mutual. You can't just play around with someone that cares so fuckin much. Might as well put a fuckin gun to my head! It's just the same.
The answers to the questions .... I feel right through them. There's nothing there. It's not solid. You lied to me ... several times throughout. Wait, that's no different than any other time. It's just lie after lie after lie. No wonder I'm so fuckin confused all the time!
You didn't even answer my questions. You just worked around them. Half of your answers had nothing to do with the questions. You played your words well. Thinking you can get away... but you can't.
After discovering the truth behind the answers, I was fuckin devestated. You don't even know I know these things though. You'd deny it anyways. Then pretend you're all hurt cuz I don't believe you. Well fuck you!! I'm sick and tired of all this shit.
Why couldn't you just speak the truth from the beginning! I hate lies and you're full of them. You obviously don't care what the hell I'm going through with the shit you're doing.
I hope it all comes back to you in the end. I hope you fuckin realize what you've lost too.

I fuckin hate that I love you!

FUCK YOU!