Im so sick of the daily headaches, the dizzy spells, and the stomach pains.
Im more sick of them throwing excuses at me. I've had daily headaches for over 3 years now and they just get worse. Ive gone through like 8 different pills for them (not an exaggeration). I go back to the doctors and what do they do? ... "here, we'll try these" ... and perscribe me another pill. They dont fricken work!!! Nothing does! And if they do, I have relief for an hour, then its back again! Im not gonna keep poppin pills for the rest of my life, just for an hour relief here and there. Fricken hospitalize me and figure out wtf is causing it! ... Then he says that my dizzy spells are just an imbalance in my organs or some shit and it has to run its course. wtf? ... So I gotta put up with dizzy spells and losing balance and almost collapsing until its done "running its course" ?! ... you're kidding me.... its fuckin bull!
And on top of that I have this fucking depression that wont let me live my life. Its not easy. I don't ask to feel this say. Its hard to go to school, concentrate and juggle everything else in this messed up life. And all I'm ever told is "You can do this, you can do that, you're just being negative, you just have to want it..." etc .... Fuck man. I don't ask to feel this way. It just comes to me and it's not easy to turn around. I do NOT want to feel this way, live like this, deal with this!
.....I'm done.
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Hey you,
I hope you slept well.. I was all over the place and I thought that I'd see if you've written in your blog. I rmemember i said I'd comment this, I spoke it verbally or perhaps on MSN. I'm sorry. I love you so much.
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